Thats Just Life

    So many things have happened since I wrote in here last. My husband got a new, very well paying job. Downside? He's in North Dakota and we are all here. He doesnt think he will be able to come home for another 3-4 weeks! He's already been gone for 2. It is quite the struggle to get into a routine with my kids. They are about a month away from going back to school and there is SO much to be done. Now I get to do it alone. I know deep inside that this is what we need to do right now to survive and soon enough, I will be happy we did it. Right now though, I am going to whine a little. I keep telling Donny that in 20 years we will look back on these days and have a good laugh. I hope I am right.

    My mother got married the other day. I knew it was going to happen. She notified me through a text message. Not the way I would have told my children but at least it wasnt just me that heard it that way. I think Stephanie heard it on her answering machine. I'm not even going to lie and say I was offended that I wasnt invited. Shit, she didnt even tell me the date. I dont know if she thought I would show up, ranting like a lunatic or something if I knew. I do however, think she should have invited her grandchildren I wouldnt have stopped them from going. Then I thought maybe she just had a few witnesses or whatever come, so thats ok. But no, come to find out, my brother gave her away and my aunt went along with her children. WTF??? I was more than offended to see the picture, posted on facebook, that showed other children I didnt know, in attendance. She keeps screaming from the hilltops to anyone that will listen, or read, about how much her children and grand children mean, and then we are all snubbed from her wedding. Strange. I honestly dont know what her deal is. It really just gives me another chapter to add to my book. Which is already on to my teen years by the way. Yay me! I really hope she has a happy life with this one. Honestly I do. I just dont think I will be a part of it. I have my own demons to deal with and really dont want to muddy the waters with hers.I think I'm finally coming to terms with my own fucked up piece of history. Its a long road and the more I unwrap from my memories the less I like certain people. I refuse to pretend anymore that certain things can be undone or that everything is peachy. I am not saying that I hate anyone, just that my eyes have been opened and I cannot understand what could make anyone do those things to the very people "God" put you in charge of protecting.. Somehow cannot wrap my head around that.

    Kida are good, for now, and summer has begun its slow decent into fall. I look forward to the crunch of leaves and cooler temps. Oh and this wonderful thing they call school! Not sure if I will be going to work at the Deaf School or taking a job back at Maplewood. MSAD has until Friday to get back to me, then the decision will have to be made. Either way, I feel pretty good about things right now. The future is looking up and thats always a good thing!  :)